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mysterynerd  

vhsmeme:

now that you’re back is a novel by a.l. kennedy.

• ‘ you lead such a very uncomfortable life and i think about that. ’
• ‘ so any help you need…are you listening? ’
• ‘ loving someone means that you will do things for them, almost without consideration. ’
• ‘ are you sleeping better? ’
• ‘ you can have another. there’s no one else to eat them but me. ’
• ‘ take good care of yourself and remember you aren’t alone. ’
• ‘ i slept, but i woke up. i had a dream. ’
• ‘ do something good for yourself. ’
• ‘ what’s the matter, you feel sick or something? ’
• ‘ keep it safe. ’
• ‘ stop hurting. ’
• ‘ it was luck, that’s all. ’
• ‘ everything is safe. everything is alright. ’
• ‘ did something happen? ’
• ‘ i was in a tough mood that day. ’
• ‘ have a bath and go to bed and think about leaving. ’
• ‘ you’ll be praying for me? ’
• ‘ i hope you have a safe journey home. ’

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farmorepersonal  

tombstcne:

RICHARD SIKEN / WAR OF THE FOXES
Change pronouns as necessary and tweak sentences as appropriate!

• I am faithful to you, darling.
• When you bang on the wall you have to remember you’re on both sides of it but go ahead, yell at yourself.
• Some people don’t understand anything.
• He’s easy to desire since there’s not much to him.
• No one wants to know what’s in his head.
• To make something beautiful should be enough. It isn’t. It should be.
• You’d break your heart to make it bigger.
• Will you defend yourself? From me, I mean.
• Let’s kill something.
• I prefer to blame others, it’s easier.
• All these ghosts come streaming down and I wish I had something else.
• We all move forward anyway. Ripples in all directions.
• What is a ghost? Something dead that seems to be alive. Something dead that doesn’t know it’s dead.
• All thoughts finish themselves eventually.
• Can we love nature for what it really is: predatory?
• When you have nothing to say, set something on fire.
• I wanted to explain myself to myself in an understandable way.
• Something’s not right about what I’m doing but I’m still doing it.
• The enormity of my desire disgusts me.
• Look away but I’m still there.
• Want something to chase you? Run.
• Take only what you need.
• Never finish a war without starting another.
• I’ve seen your true face: the back of your head. If you were walking away, keep walking.
• The fear: that nothing survives. The greater fear: that something does.
• All these things and what to do with them. We carve up the world all the time.
• I like dead things. They cannot hurt me.
• We like things related to our survival: soup, arrows - they expand the range of the species.
• My body is a graveyard.
• People like to think war means something.
• Let’s admit, without apology, what we do to each other. We know who our enemies are. We know.
• There are many loves but only one war.
• You will need to comfort him, or we will never be finished with this.
• You cannot have an opponent if you keep saying yes.
• Its roots in the ground and its branches in the air, a tree is pulled in two directions.
• The boy is a bird, bad bird. He falls out of trees.
• You cannot get in the way of anyone’s path to God. You can, but it does no good.
• Some say God is where we put our sorrow.
• In the wrong light anyone can look like a darkness.
• What can you know about a person?
• Difficult thing, to be scrutinized so long.
• Even when I look away I am still looking.
• Everyone secretly wants to collaborate with the enemy, to construct a truer version of the self.
• How much can you change and get away with it, before you turn into someone else, before it’s some kind of murder?
• Why build a room you can live in? Why build a shed for your fears?
• There wasn’t much left but it felt like him, wild and scared.
• The best part of spirituality is reverence. There are other parts. Some people like to hear the sound of their own voice.
• If you don’t believe in God, then who are you talking to?
• But truth doesn’t count in law, only proof.
• Was I discovered or invented? Feels like I’ve always been here.
• Measure yourself against the truth and not the other way around.
• Perfect and completely dead.
• People don’t learn anything unless they are afraid of being left behind.
• Logic is boring because it works. Being unreasonable is exciting.
• I am your arrival, there is no refusal, we are here, you see, together, we are already here.
• This is also part of the story: how the story changes. This is something I forgot to tell you.
• You might like it here. I think that you might like it here.
• I tell you these things because I love you.
• It’s nothing like I thought it would be and closer to what I meant.
• Maybe we will wake up to the silence of shoes at the foot of the bed not going anywhere.
• It reminds me of where I was going without you.
• You know what it’s like to be alone: gimlets and vermicide. You know what it’s like to be alive, so forgiveness.
• You asked me once, What are we made of? Well, these are the things we’re made of.
• I turned my ears in all directions. I’ll live alone or in between.
• Everyone needs a place. It shouldn’t be inside of someone else.
• Your body told me in a dream it’s never been afraid of anything.
• I live in big spaces, so I’m left alone in big spaces.
• We made ourselves cold. We made ourselves snow. We smuggled ourselves into ourselves. Haunted by each other’s knowledge.
• To hide somewhere is not surrender, it is trickery.
• I try to guess your trajectory and end up telling my own story.
• I surrender my desire to be healed.
• Take it or leave it, and for the most part you take it.
• Shame comes from vanity. Shame means you’re guilty, like the rest of us, but you think you’re better than we are. Maybe you are.
• There is no new me, there is no old me, there’s just me, the same me, the whole time.
• Don’t try to make a stronger wind, you’ll wear yourself out. Build a better sail.
• You want to solve something? Get out of your own way.
• What’s the difference between me and the world? Compartmentalisation.
• I hope it’s love. I’m trying really hard to make it love.
• I clawed my way into the light but the light is just as scary.
• I’d rather quit. I’d rather be sad. It’s too much work.
• I mean, maybe it’s better if my opponent wins.
• What happens when I no longer want to meet you?
• Nothing lasts forever: we know this.
• Longing and suffering? Of course, of course. You want it to mean something.
• You can disconnect it or you can try to glue it all together.
• We could pull it apart, spend our whole lives pulling it apart and have no time left to do anything smart with the pieces.
• The sooner you embrace it, the sooner it will leave you.
• You are what you cover up.
• Noise and more noise. Noise up to heaven.
• One wonders why a story like this exists.
• I want to give you more but not everything. You don’t need everything.
• Someone has to leave first.
• He was pointing at the moon but I was looking at his hand.
• All this was prepared for me. All this was set in motion long ago.
• I stayed as long as I could. Now look at the moon.
• What does all this love amount to?

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